Alone. That's right I'm alone. So what does that mean?
It Means I don't have a Girlfriend ,Significant other ,Wife or Partner.
Until this morning it was bothering me.
Quite a bit.
I joined a couple of online dating sites looking for someone to fill the empty spot in my life.
Boy that's a weird thing. I'll post on that another time.
And then (for about the 100th time) a couple of very good friends said something that finally Clicked.
I can't be with someone until I can be with myself.
It's taken a long time for me to get that. A LONG time.( Sorry People)
I've spent much ti,me and energy equating alone with Lonely. I think i finally realized I don't have to do that.
So . I'm going to delete those online accounts. I'm going hang with friends. I'm going to accept that I'm alone so I can enjoy the time I have and take care of some if those things I have not.
Like Me.
One thing I'll be doing is really determining what a relationship would look like for me. And what my partner would look like. No Not Boob size. Who she would be . Looks are not that important. (Ok she has to have all her teeth or a bridge for ones knocked out in Hockey I find the missing teeth thing disturbing) .
Maybe that's it. I'll be alone forever. Maybe not. Life will continue to suprise me no doubt. Some good some bad. But it wil be interesting.
And no longer Lonley.
Its true. We have to be able to be with ourselves. To know who we are and, as often as possible, like who we are.
ReplyDeleteSomeone told me that two people being together must bring, each of them, 100% to the relationship. If we look for someone to "complete" us, and they go off somewhere, we are stuck at being incomplete again.
So what do we do in our alone time? Music, (listening to it, playing an instrument, dancing) books, movies, painting, photography, house work, cooking, exercise, walks, dinner parties (have them), volunteering to help with something...kids, old people, neighbours, family, friends, motorcycle riding, travel, writing a blog like this, going to work, shopping. So much to do and so little time. And visit your friends. Us for example. xo Rosemary
Thanks Rosie good advice. Dropping by to see you has been on my mind for a while. I'll make it happen son.
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